Happy New Year...2010!

Just over one year ago I started this blog. I found two things happened...1) I found I didn't have nearly enough time, energy or desire to finish it and 2) I found I worried far to much about phantom people viewing it. You never know who is reading your personal thoughts, gripes, vents, etc...and since I've never been one to "hide" my displeasure, well...

I thought about deleting it...going private...but I think I'm finally growing up and realizing that "I am who I am"...if someone has a problem with me or something I say/write, they are more then welcome to skip reading, in fact I'd prefer it. It sure doesn't seem that the a majority of society gives a flip if they offend!

So...with that said, here's to my second year and my resolutions for 2010...

1. PEACE! My goal is to bring peace to my life by taking steps to change my thought process as I tend to dwell on negative things. With my new thought process, if I realize I'm thinking of something negative, I tell myself "that's a negative thought" and immediately change my thought to something else. It's working great!

"If something brings you peace, it is good and should be encouraged."

"If something takes you peace away, it is bad and must be eliminated from you life."

2. Eliminating toxic people! I can finally say that I can and have unplugged a few people from my life, THANK GOD!

I've had a toxic neighbor that I've dealt with for almost 9 years...we've not spoke in over a year, but just recently have I been able to mentally unplug completely and I have never felt so free.

Most recently I had to unplug from a newer acquaintance, I am so thankful that I realized early on that this person was toxic and unhealthy for me to be around.

"If you can't join them, ignore them by not affixing any importance to them...once you don't give a toss to them by not valuing them, automatically you won't value their words/opinions or comments."

3. Making wise decisions with people!

"After every encounter with someone, ask yourself...Do I feel better or worse than I did before?"

4. ORGANIZATION! I used to pride myself on my organizational skills. Thirteen years ago I gave birth to a wonderful precious baby boy...followed four years later by my bouncing baby girl. I've definitely notice a decline in my organization...but 2009 was the worst. I will also admit that 2009 was also my worst year mentally. It seems there is absolute truth to "mommy brain"..."mommy burnout"..."brain fog"...and of course "depression". I'm taking steps now to organize my life...home, school and family. This year WILL be different as momma is back and on top of her game!

5. Weight! Last year I posted about my weight struggles, desires and goals. This year I plan to follow through. I've lost around 26 pounds since October. My current plan is allowing myself 800 calories a day, this is very low...dangerously low actually. But I'm working it carefully allowing myself a cheat day when needed or desired. I view it as a bank account, I can have anything I want as long as I have the money (calories) to spend...once I run out I'm done spending (eating). The good thing is I try to get the most bang for my buck and choose very wisely...usually always healthy as healthy always contains less calories for far more food!

I think that's enough...everything listed has already been implemented and I feel fantastic! 2010...what a great year this will be!

Love, peace & joy!